Get your focus straight and orchestrate fate.

Thoughts on paper haven't been working very well as of late. My head is just a giant cloud of empty space, yet it's full of stuff at the same time. I just really don't know overall. I'm moving out in 4-6 months. Lots of cleaning to do, and stuff to pass on. Hopefully it all goes well. Why? It's just time. I'm not moving forward anymore, and it's time to move forward and get some change. That's probably the biggest thing in my life lately. Ahhh, I applied at Adrenaline today, and things are looking good, so I am really excited for that. I look forward to potentially being a guide there. Would be quite amazing. Ahhh, yeah. I really don't know. It's strange at how empty my head is. My band has our first show tomorrow, at Mount Doug High, for a charity celebration type event. Going to be quite fun, I definitely look forward to it. Friday is... I don't really know. Hopefully climbing at Stelly's. With Nadia. But who knows. I really hope it works out. Climbing is kind of like... the one thing I really really enjoy. I forget the feeling of being on stage. It's been quite awhile since I have been up there. Missed the last ToF, which mega sucks. But the next one is soon! As well as the slam... I don't even know what I'm going to do for the next slam. I don't even know if I'm going to slam. I think I should, even if it won't go over well. We'll see come Tuesday. I'm just so lost and found lately. Blaaahblaahblaah. I think I need to disappear for a few weeks, or just go someplace nearby and sit there all day. Maybe sleep, or read, or just sit. I haven't sat in a long time. Not the best, I don't think. Maybe I'm just so stressed I can't even tell. I don't know. Either way, things are shifting. Especially if I get the job at Adrenaline. That would definitely be a pick-me-up. We'll see what the next couple weeks have in store for me.