Emotions!

So today was a weird day... I woke up, and went on a bike ride, it wasn't anything too amazing, but it was good. I decided against a big ride, because when I woke up I just wasn't feeling it at all. I cahsed my cheque, which was weird. I got pissed off in the bank. They have a fantastic "anti-burglary" system in place where you have to remove sunglasses, turn your hat backwards, or take it off. That kind of stupid bullshit. I had a helmet on and I was told to remove it. Soooo pointless. I'm going to rob a fucking bank, then getaway on my bike. It just pisses me off when I have to do stupid shit like that. Whatever. Today I've been feeling pretty emotional. Just like... lonely, kind of empty. Not like, anything brutal, but just a bit of a wake-up call. Work was decent. I was really motivated to get stuff done, but everyone else was feeling down and out, so that kinda sucked. But whatevaaaaa. Then I talked to this one woman at this house, and it was really surreal. I knocked on the door, and an older woman answered, and I asked as I always do, "Hello! How are you doing?" She said well, then stopped herself and said "Well, not really" and she rubbed her hand through her hair and said "I'm going through chemo". And it just hit me. It was a very intense feeling, and I was like, speechless. We had a short nice chat after, but I'm not going to forget that woman anytime soon. She really blew my mind. So that is still sitting with me. Right now I just want to hold someone I care deeply about. I don't really care who, there's a number of people I care deeply for, but alas, I am in Sooke, and they are all far away. But oh well, I'll get through it. Always do!

Be well.