No words can describe

I feel like shit. Absolute shit. I just feel like putting my head in my hands and sitting. For days. I'm tired, my job is just not going well at all, I don't feel like I'm connected to anything at all. And that is fucking scary. I'm thinking I'm probably going to quit my job. I'm just feeling really trapped. I need to look for something I'm motivated and wanting to do. I took the door to door job because it was right there, and easy to get into. I've definitely learnt the easiest route is not the best route. Sooo, I dunno, I'm honestly pretty set on quitting. I have this feeling that even if I start doing well, it's not going to change anything. So I'm going to quit, and look for something more interesting. Dedicate my time back to myself, because I know that's something I need. Today was a decent day, as well. I had my first band practice in.... 5 months? It was so wonderful. Ben finished our album, and we've got some plans for selling CDs soon! ( www.myspace.com/islandsend ). It was just so good to make music again. Then I had a couple terrible bus rides, and a meeting that was actually really nice. It was for the Sooke Youth Council, and it was just awesome to think about stuff with people. It felt a bit redundant, but it was definitely something that was necessary to get the ball rolling again. So yeah. It's time for change.