Touch your inner flame; paint your name in carbon along the tectonic plates.

So I've had a really stellar weekend. Friday was incredible, found out I got the job with Adrenaline, so by the summertime I will be an official Zipline Tour Guide. I am really looking forward to it. A lot of anticipation was put into getting that job, and I'm really relieved to have landed it! My contract starts on the 19th of May, so I've got some time to prep. I've gotta get some practice on an ATV, anddd get my First Aid and CPR-C. Can be done, woo! Saturday was totally awesome. I performed in my first show, and it was wicked fun, such an awesome opportunity. I performed with CR Avery, and some of the amazing Vic Poets up at this beautiful guest house in Cowichan called Affinity. It was pretty amazing to get to perform with CR, because he's totally a point of inspiration for me, and I have lots of respect for him. So that happened, we got back into Victoria at like, 2AM in the morning, then I went off to Iris' birthday party. Pretty much everyone left like, 20 minutes after I got there, but oh well. It was still really nice to see everyone there. Then I had some breakfast with Sarah and Seth, and that was nice. Then it was off to the climbing gym. Belayed for a few interesting kids, and then I climbed for awhile with Mary, and Matt. Then I saw Rico, of all people. That was awesome. So I climbed from like, 3-5ish. Left, had some wonderful food from the James Bay Coffee Co. Kate was working, which was super nice, and we talked of course. Then I saw Tyler and Elle, so I caught up with them. It was hilarious, they got banned from the Thrifty's there, so they left and came back to ask me if I could go buy them perogies. It was hilarious. Then it was back to the gym. I climbed more, saw Yee(Yi?), Fletcher, Cassidy, and that was cool. Fletcher joined Louisa and Ben and I so we all climbed as a group, very fun. Fletcher drove us home, then Ben and I played video games until like, 2AM, crashed, woke up, left, then I floated. Saw my bus driver friend, Tim. He's my favourite, by far. We had a great conversation, he bought me some tea and a pepperoni bread thing, and he let me switch the indicator board thing, which was cool. Then I was in town, went and visited MEgan at Mayfair, and came home. Showered, changed, then I'm back into town to maybe dance! Sounds sweet to me. Anyways, there's my big update. Woo life.

Climbing.

I feel like I should blog about my awesome climbing session today. It was with Kostas and Megan. I went into it feeling pretty alright, hungry, and expecting me to kinda not be totally into it, but it ended up being so damn good. I started off trying this 5.10a, but it was a bit much for me to start on, and I didn't wanna burn out early. So I went around and did 5.8s and 5.9s and they just all felt so good. Then I hit the cave up, and it was awwwwwesome. I've gotta work on the red climb a bit more, but I can totally land it now, and it feels really good to solve a problem. Right now I've got the yellow climb to look forward to figuring out, and I'm about 1/3 of the way through. As well, I tried my nemesis 10a, and I got past the crux that's been killing me for weeks. I couldn't get past the part just after but, but now I have that to look forward to. And that other 10a. Then I did a 5.9 that I think I attempted last time, and I didn't make it, and I totally nailed that one too. Sloppily, but I did it. Definitely a good climb for me to hone in some skills. Wooo, I love climbing. Then next week, Friday/Saturday/Sunday I'll be belaying, and getting mad credits. I am really excited for that. I definitely look forward to it.

I was sent from the ether.

Holy crap, man. It's funny about my last blog post. I think I talked about feeling some huge void. The next day I felt great, and it's been awesome ever since. Band had our first show, and it went quite well. And we've got two more shows lined up, with undetermined dates. In my poetry world, holy crap are things getting real. I've been asked to go to a school next Friday and do a little bit with grade sixes about poetry, I've been asked to do a show that should have a very wonderful outcome, and I've been asked to do poetry in the raw. I tied for second in tonight's Slam, which is my best placing in Victoria, and it's all really amazing. Who'd have thought I'd be doing this all within a year of graduation? Either way, it rocks. Now all I need is a job... still waiting on word from Adrenaline. I'm gonna stop in tomorrow, and see what's up. Hopefully something good is cookin'! Moving out still looms on my mind... I'm throwing my whole family into not really disarray... but definitely a strange state and it's got me a little frustrated. It'd be nice if I could just pack up and leave, but I guess moving out is a big decision for a reason. It'll really be my life, or so I hope. I don't know what is on the other side, but I look forward to it. A lot. I'm feeling really good right now. Slams, and Tongues of Fire always leave me refreshed and feeling re-energized. Just so wonderful. I miss love, a lot. I think in all of my wanting to be with girls, and being all caught up in them, and caught up in my own issues, and just worry and being down and out about everything really took my realization of love away from me. I want it back, and I mean, maybe tomorrow morning will be the morning to start it. Maybe it won't. All I know is the wheel is gonna start turning, and watch out when it does, because shit will go down. The best shit of my life.

Get your focus straight and orchestrate fate.

Thoughts on paper haven't been working very well as of late. My head is just a giant cloud of empty space, yet it's full of stuff at the same time. I just really don't know overall. I'm moving out in 4-6 months. Lots of cleaning to do, and stuff to pass on. Hopefully it all goes well. Why? It's just time. I'm not moving forward anymore, and it's time to move forward and get some change. That's probably the biggest thing in my life lately. Ahhh, I applied at Adrenaline today, and things are looking good, so I am really excited for that. I look forward to potentially being a guide there. Would be quite amazing. Ahhh, yeah. I really don't know. It's strange at how empty my head is. My band has our first show tomorrow, at Mount Doug High, for a charity celebration type event. Going to be quite fun, I definitely look forward to it. Friday is... I don't really know. Hopefully climbing at Stelly's. With Nadia. But who knows. I really hope it works out. Climbing is kind of like... the one thing I really really enjoy. I forget the feeling of being on stage. It's been quite awhile since I have been up there. Missed the last ToF, which mega sucks. But the next one is soon! As well as the slam... I don't even know what I'm going to do for the next slam. I don't even know if I'm going to slam. I think I should, even if it won't go over well. We'll see come Tuesday. I'm just so lost and found lately. Blaaahblaahblaah. I think I need to disappear for a few weeks, or just go someplace nearby and sit there all day. Maybe sleep, or read, or just sit. I haven't sat in a long time. Not the best, I don't think. Maybe I'm just so stressed I can't even tell. I don't know. Either way, things are shifting. Especially if I get the job at Adrenaline. That would definitely be a pick-me-up. We'll see what the next couple weeks have in store for me.